Waiting for a Cast List = confused and moody people who act as though everyone is on their period.

Theater. I defined it above (^^) and I honestly believe that its all true. Theater means so much to me and I've gotten so much from it, I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Since I said I started theater when I was about 11 or 12, I've been in seven full out productions and in all seven of those shows, I feel like I recieved a puzzle piece to myself and my talent. It seems as though every show I've learned something very important either about myself, my ability, how theater is run, and life in general. I've met and worked with so many people that all have had an impact on me, and I honestly feel like I am "dancing through life" (Sorry for the Wicked refrence ;), one step at a time, with the help of everyone I've met through theater. Although I have done many shows and I've worked with many directors, my heart is totally given to one of the ultimate directors, Jim Lortz. He especially, has taught me so many life lessons and so much about being present on stage and off I have learned to put it towards my life. Although life is never easy, I feel if everyone would just be physically and mentally present, we could cut down on many of our problems in the world today.

Back to buisness....
Currently, we are in the process of getting our high school production rolling!
So exciting because this year we're doing Seussical: The Musical! Eeeeekkk!
I've never actually seen it, but obviously now I know all the music, plot, characters, etc., but I was always of fan of the idea of mashing all these famous and classic Dr. Seuss tales that I've been in love with since chilldhood. So, when I first listened to the score last summer when I found out it was going to be Seussical, I automatically fell in love with Gertrude McFuzz. Although personally I do seem so sure about life and love, I can fully 100% relate to Gertrude. Shes the quiet, shy, and beautiful in her own kind of way girlbird, who just wants the one person, in this case, elephant, notice her for who she is instead of all the other ones who put so much effort into being the kind of girl who automatically attracts the opposite gender, but they aren't being theirself. Gertrude is such a character that is brutally honest about everything and anything, even though she is so timid; and thats why I love her. Not to mention, her range is perfect for me and I even managed to get a "gertrude character voice" for the audition. :)
We had to perform a previously assigned excerpt (Notice Me Horton for Gertrude) and select a monologue from a Dr. Seuss book. I picked an excepert from Gertrude McFuzz, obviously, and it wasn't too hard because it was basically the lyrics from "One Feather Tail of Miss Gertrude McFuzz" and "Amazing Mayzie\Amazing Gertrude".
Auditions were last Friday, and I've never been happier about an audition before. Even though I got post nasal crap the day before (I've learned to live with it- ugh) I absoulty rocked my audition and "wowed" the panel. It was one of the greatest feelings ever that I won't forget.

Now the wait.... like I said in the title, I feel like the wait for the cast list is the absolute WORST part about theater. So many things happen between people (look out for Drama... !) and so many things are changing through the directors' minds when the meet about casting. Its one of the worst feelings in your tummy because even though it isn't in your control anymore (every single point up to the audition IS in your control, however....) you don't want to think about, have confidence about it, or anything else because you're afraid you're coming too confident, or you're going to jinx it. (Thats what I feel sometime atleast....) Its just horrible, and hopefully the cast list will be out after Thanksgiving break.
I'll keep you posted!


Kristin
mood: nausea- from the STUPID CAST LIST :(